32koukei no Kenjuu

Kanji

今宵はジメジメした「五月雨」です。 
レア気味の本能がガラガラとうずく 
ひきだしに隠してたホコリまみれの 
32口径の冷たく重いピストル 
六畳一間のこの部屋は何時も 
七年前のアノ夜を抉り返す。 

目をそむけてきた事実に追い詰められて 
前には進めず　また途方に暮れてしまう 

子供の頃　ずっとずっと一人ぼっちで 
辛い時は気付いて欲しくて泣いてた 
僕を捨てた父や母の顔を浮かべては 
幾夜も幾夜も泣いて　…声をあげて 

今宵はジメジメした「五月雨」です。 
レア気味の本能がガラガラとうずく 
安定剤漬けの毎日も今日で終了です。 
ドクドクドクドク胸が張り裂けそうさ！ 

投げやりになれば楽になれたのに　ためらうばかりで身動きも取れず 
もしも生まれ変われたら　その時は今より少しでもいい幸せになれたらって… 
優しすぎの母親と、心配性の父親の愛を受けて育った僕は 
臆病さを、弱き自分を憎んだ… 

子供の頃　ずっとずっと一人ぼっちで 
辛い時は気付いて欲しくて泣いてた 
僕を捨てた父や母の顔を浮かべては 
幾夜も幾夜も泣いて

いつか3人手を繋いで　またここで一緒に暮らそうねって 
そう言ったから僕ずっと待ってたのに 
どうして帰って来てくれなかったの？　ずっと…　待ってたんだ… 

（信じ続けた少年は皮肉にも五日後の昼過ぎに両親の元に帰りましたとさ…）




Romaji

Koyoi wa JIMEJIMEshita "gogatsu ame" desu.
REA-gimi no honnou ga GARAGARA to uzuku
Hikidashi ni kakushiteta hokori mamire no
32koukei no tsumetaku omoi PISUTORU
Rokujou hitoma no kono heya wa itsumo
Nananen mae no ANO yoru wo kurikaesu.

Me wo somuketekita jijitsu ni oitsumerarete
Mae ni wa susumezu Mata tohou ni kureteshimau

Kodomo no koro Zutto zutto hitoribotchi de
Tsurai toki wa kizuite hoshikute naiteta
Boku wo suteta chichi ya haha wo kao wo ukabete wa
Ikuyo mo ikuyo mo naite ...koe wo agete

Koyoi wa JIMEJIMEshita "gogatsu ame" desu.
REA-gimi no honnou ga GARAGARA to uzuku
Dourakuzuke no mainichi mo kyou de owari desu. *
DOKUDOKUDOKUDOKU mune ga harisakesou sa!

Nageyari ni nareba raku ni nareta noni Tamerau bakari de miugoki mo torezu
Moshimo umarekawaretara Sono toki wa ima yori sukoshi de mo ii shiawase ni naretara tte...
Yasashisugi no hahaoya to, shimpaishou no chichioya no ai wo ukete sodatta boku wa
Okubyou sa wo, yowaki no jibun wo nikunda...

Itsuka sannin te wo tsunaide Mata kokode isshou ni karasou ne tte
Sou itta kara boku zutto matteta noni
Doushite kaettekite kurenakatta no? Zutto... mattetanda...

(Shinji tsuzuketa shounen wa hiniku ni mo itsuka ato no hirosugi ni ryoushin no moto ni kaerimashita to sa...)




English

There is humid "early-summer rain" tonight.
This rare-like instinct aches almost emptily.
The 32-caliber, cold and heavy pistol
Hidden in my desk drawer and covered in dust.
This 6-mat room* always
Repeats that night from seven years ago. *

I'm cornered by the fact I looked away
Never went forward, and lost all direction.

When I was child, I was always, always alone.
I wanted you to notice when I was in pain and cried.
I see the faces of the father and mother who abandoned me,
And cry for so many nights ...screaming.

There is humid "early-summer rain" tonight.
This rare-like instinct aches almost emptily.
And the hobby* I'm addicted to will end today, too.
My heart is likely to break in gushes!

Although I easily got used to being neglected,
I can't help but move with hesitation
If I were born again, if I could find more happiness than I have now at that time...
I, who was raised with the love of a mother too kind and a father prone to worrying,
Hated my own cowardice, my weakness...

Our three hands will hold each other one day. And we will live here together again.
I waited the whole time because you said that.
But why didn't you come back for me? I was waiting... the whole time...

(It is said the boy who continued to believe ironically returned to his parents' origin five days later in the afternoon)

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